Hi Ho Hi Ho Its Off To Work I Go

Today was my full first day without kids, and to be honest I am not sure how I feel about it. It was great dropping AJ off at preschool and driving to the gym without lugging Addie and all her stuff to the child watch room and then only having an hour to workout. Today I was able to workout as much as I want and as long as I wished. Plus it was great with missing a week because of Addie's cold and my own head cold not allowing us to get to the gym last week.

So after that I went home and actually took a shower where I could shave my legs and exfoliate! Seriously all mommies know that it is a glorious feeling to be able to do anything for yourself, particularly grooming, without a small voice interrupting. Then I went to train at my new job, which really used to be my old job.

That's right folks I am working the desk again at DeStress. The current receptionist, LaQuanda, is moving on to a new job so my mom, the owner and founder of DeStress Express, thought it would be a perfect solution for me to take LaQuanda's place. For the last two years I have been pretending to be a real estate agent, but really I have been a mommy. I never wanted to be a real estate agent but at the time it seemed like a job that I could be successful in and still have a life because my former job as a retail store manager did not let me have a life at all. The problem is I am a nice person and the majority of agents are overly competitive and mean to each other. I never felt comfortable asking my friends and family for referrals, that is how good real estate agents build their business.

During my time as a real estate agent I sent an article on real estate things to a local newspaper, the Oyster Pointer, and it was accepted. I hadn't written a piece for publication in almost five years so this was a big deal. Then I was asked to be a regular and I think that was the beginning of the end to my real estate career because I started getting more compliments on my articles than on my real estate methods.

So this is a long way of explaining that I am now going back to work as an office manager and lucky for me the Oyster Pointer has asked me to remain as a freelance writer which is really what I want to do and that will help me build my portfolio.

But the biggest dilemma of the day is I didn't miss the kids today. I know that this is a good thing because I trust the people Big Papi and I have hired to take care of them and that I am ready to go back to work. The bigger problem I have is that it proves that I am not a person who can be about her children all the time. I need an identity outside my mommy role. Yes I am proud to be AJ Rice's mommy x 2 but I am also a wife and a woman with talents other than pushing out babies.

For those mothers who make the choice to put your kids above everything else are afraid to step out of the mommy role to reclaim the talent lives they had before the kids came. Going back to work for me is doing that for myself, reclaiming the woman who just happens to also be a mommy.